I have a partner with BPD and whilst no two cases of this illness are the same it has given me some deeper understanding of what he must go through on a daily basis. it's rare to hear bpd spoken about in such human terms - not medicalised, stigmatised, romanticised, or misrepresented. Hi, hope you're OK," he said, addressing the camera, before the screen splits and an alternate version of himself chips in. Heartbreaking and very honest, this ‘ not a self help book ‘ details Joe’s descent into and emergence from addiction while battling with his mental health and suicidal state. He made his first short video in January, because he had spent his life telling lies and he just wanted to tell the truth, unadorned, however painful it was.

Tracini then proceeded to rap his way through tongue-in-cheek lyrics littered with some truths about his condition. Anos de terapia e consultas psiquiátricas me fizeram perceber que quanto mais eu entendo a minha condição, mais eu posso conviver em paz com ela. At times it’s side-splitting funny, at other times I couldn’t read on without having a breather, but I got through it (much like Joe has) and I am all the better for it. i've met a few people recently that make me feel like this illness isn't such a capital sentence, and the sort of parasocial relationship i've had with this book, dipping in and out, reading a chapter whenever i'm having a rough time, treating it like a cool, funny, and friendly embrace of "it's shit, but it might get better" has undoubtedly been a powerful one.

Foi ótimo me sentir acolhida e abraçada por alguém que também se sente a pior pessoa do mundo na maior parte do tempo. Been reading this book for a while now - got it shortly after it was published and raced through the first half.

Joes story is far from pretty and very heartbreaking at times and the reason behind him writing this book is one of pure honestly. Deliveries to destinations outside Australia are made by DHL courier, and cannot be made to post office boxes. Thank you Joe for put putting into words what was very painful and difficult to talk about at times. This book is brutally honest and not an easy read but like Joe it’s full of love, humour and ultimately hope.Back in the day of his old hollyoaks videos who knew the pain and trauma going on behind his eyes and these days even on the worst of days Joe has kept me going in ways he can never imagine and I hope he knows how his honesty over his condition helps so many people every day and his amazing dance videos gave us all something to hold onto during lockdown. Having somebody put their arm around you and proselytize is something you find all too much in books, but having someone pat your arm and say 'yeah, I get that' with real empathy in their voice is very rare, and this felt like walking in the park with somebody who wasn't judging me. Sometimes there is no split screen, just Tracini explaining that talking about killing himself in front of so many people is a form of insurance – the more people he tells he won’t do it, the less likely he is to do so. This is not a comfortable book to read, but it is a brave, important and necessary book that shines a light on a lot of the issues around mental health and how we as a society deal with it. His message is that we don’t want yet another book which says: "my life used to be shit but now it’s great and you can do it too!